Thursday, June 5, 2014

The GRE is over ... for now

I successfully completed the GRE today.
The GRE is a entry-level test required of some graduate schools.
I received a partial score and will be sent the remainder of my score once my written essays have been graded.
The points I did receive were pretty good.
In fact, they meet the minimum requirement for application prerequisites.
However, I think I am going to retake them later in the summer anyway.
As soon as I finished the test, I felt like I had a better idea of how to manage my time more efficiently and what math concepts I needed to become more familiar with.
I could probably submit the current scores to several schools, but I'm not happy with my performance.
My dad says the scores are fine and to leave it alone.
I cannot leave anything alone.
I just know I can do better.
I then came home and had an existential meltdown.
I was wrestling with my purpose in life and what I want to spend my time doing.
It was very dramatic.
I sat with my head in my hands.
Then I leaned up against the wall and sighed really loudly.
I slammed my fist into my other palm.
I shed a single tear.
All while listening to that sad Sarah McLachlan song that is playing during all the SPCA commercials about homeless dogs.
I began to rethink my whole educational focus.
I previously thought that maybe I would get a masters in public relations.
I have since decided that I will not do that.
I just doesn't feel right.
My dad got home and asked about how my test went and I bombarded him with questions about what it takes to become an ultrasound technician.
I am trying to be realistic about my education and I don't want to pay for training in a field that doesn't pay enough to raise a family on.
Or something that I will hate with every fiber of my being.
But while I am grappling with my innermost feelings of desperation, I will leave you with a few links.

1. An article I was sent.
I read it three times.
And cried.
You will cry too.
I dare you not to.
(You should still read it, without mascara.)

2. Check out this playhouse.
It is ridiculous.
And by ridiculous I don't mean ridiculously cool, I mean completely stupid.
This dad basically built a miniature version of his own home complete with air conditioner, T.V., and granite counter tops.
I don't understand the point.
^^ This kid has more real estate than I do. How embarrassing. ^^
It's almost Friday!
Which as a parent doesn't mean much, but I look forward to it nonetheless!


  1. I hope you have some relief from finishing the GRE. I am sure you did great! That little house is pretty great and pretty excessive. Super good article, too. I wonder if you should do some sort of design (though I know it's not super steady income...) but you're so creative, good at writing and have a good eye for design.

  2. Congrats on taking the must be relieved! Since it sounds like you are still unsure about the direction that you want to take, try looking at one or two jobs that interest you and talk to people in those jobs about the path they took to get to where they r today. That may help you decide (a) if you really need to take the GREs again and (b) which path is best for you. Informational interviews cost nothing and will help build your confidence as well. Take this process one step at a time of prioritizing what efforts will bring you the most results.

    1. You have really strong talents Brianne.The advice you have been given is good.You need to look at your strengths and weaknesses and your likes and dislikes.Having someone pull it all together for you is a great you.